minced & diced (and everything nice)

Dear Claire,

"What" and "If" are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if?

I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart.

I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it.

And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will.

All my love,
Juliet


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From the movie Letters to Juliet.

The foregoing was the letter written by Sophie, acting as a secretary to Juliet, to Claire, in response to the latter's 50-year old letter to Juliet about her forbidden love Lorenzo.

For someone who is admittedly addicted to the net and everything it had to offer, I was devastated when I found out that I had no internet connection in my designated office PC in the Court of Appeals. I had to bring my own laptop and provide for my own net connection. At first, I didn't really mind. After all, internet connection through the office LAN has firewall, and many *crucial* (read: facebook, etc.) websites are blocked. Having my own laptop then allowed me to have unlimited net access.

But seven months later, the burden of bringing my own laptop just so I could use all net research tools indispensable to my job (and yes, facebook on the side) had taken its toll. I am literally in pain, as my stressed tendons finally revolted against their overuse in carrying the weight of my laptop (plus case rollos sometimes). The distraction brought about by too much Facebook had proved to be unproductive (it should have been obvious from the start!) too. Suddenly, even myself felt indignant (as a taxpayer?!) that I am not being as efficient and productive as I expected (and wanted) myself to be.

Finally, heaven heard my outcry! While I wasn't happy that my officemate Eden left, I was thoroughly consoled by the fact that I was to *inherit* her internet connection! Finally, freedom is within my grasp! Freedom from carrying that heavy laptop! Freedom from that faulty broadband connection (plenty of times, I had urges of flinging away that little modem in frustration from the weak connection). Freedom from Facebook and its evil addictive offspring, Cityville! (during office hours only of course).

Finally, I was more productive. 5 resolutions in a day? That must be a feat! Yeah, I'm on a roll!

The only downside was, I had no other distraction during the times when I feel the need to rest from all those legalese. Oh no. I miss putting up statuses in Facebook. Even my springboard of pent-up, unshared emotions, that is Twitter, is blocked! My chika machine yahoo messenger is also blocked. This is an affront to my freedom of expression!

Every law has a loophole, and imagine my delight when I found one! It was a pleasant surprise to discover that the CA MIS apparently does not find Multiply as counterproductive and did not so much as bother to block it. Wahaha a silver lining!

And so, the medium that I have unintentionally abandoned because of Facebook finds new lease in life. Welcome back, Multiply! (or rather, welcome back, minceddice! :) After all, blogging is sweeter the second time around. ;)

Let the blogging begin -- again.

Bading ba siya o hindi?

I've been stuggling with this question for some time now. I've been trying to make my gaydar work and figure out this one particular person I know. When I first met him, the idea of him being gay never even crossed my mind... until I got to know him more and noticed some quirks that are really eyebrow-raising.  There are also quite a number of persons taking me aside and asking me if he is gay or not. Honestly, I'm confused. I managed to ask him --jokingly, of course, as I don't want to offend him-- if he was. He denied. But a majority of me highly doubts his denial.

Until I stumbled on a peyups forum about how to know whether your boyfriend (or the guy you have your hots on) is gay.

I then further found this blog.

Read on and be the judge.

4.Bago ka mag-react, isipin mo muna kung bakit biglang nagbago sa'yo ang isang tao. Kasi minsan, ikaw din mismo ang gumagawa ng bagay kung bakit sila biglaang nagbago

5. Minsan kailangan mong makalimot, para ikaw naman ang maalala

6.Ang PINAKAMASARAP? Yung hindi sinasabi pero nararamdaman. Yung walang singsing pero kuntento. Yung hindi kayo pero mahal ang isa't-isa. Yung walang sumpaan pero walang iwanan... at yung walang titulo pero alam mong iyo

7.Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras

8.Makakabalik ka nga sa lugar pero hindi sa panahon... makikita mo ulit ang taong minahal mo pero hindi na mauulit ang naramdaman ninyo noon. Lahat ng nangyari noon ay isa na lamang masayang gunita ngayon, isang bintana sa kahapon, na paminsan-minsan ay gusto mong masulyapang muli... sabay bulong sa sarili: Sana pwedeng ...ibalik ang mga nangyari noon para magawa kong tama ang mga maling desisyon ng pagkakataon

9.Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sa'yo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo

10.Wala namang masama sa pangingibang- bayan. Walang masama kung gusto mong lisanin ang barkong sa tingin mo'y papalubog na. Basta't wag mo lang hahagisan ng anumang pabigat ang barko habang pinagsusumikapan itong isalba ng ibang tao

11.Sana ang pag-ibig ay katulad ng pamasahe sa jeep, na kapag buo ang binigay mo... sinusuklian ka pa rin kahit papaano

12.Walang taong panget. Nagkataon lang na yung mukha nila eh hindi "USO" at hindi "IN"

13.Sabi nila ABNORMAL daw yung taong pumapayag saktan ng taong mahal nila. Sabi ko naman... eh di'ba MAS ABNORMAL ang taong SASAKTAN KA saka sasabihing.. . MAHAL NA MAHAL KA nya??-MC DUANE

14.Ang tunay na pag-ibig madalang ang biyahe... kaya kapag dumaan sa’yo, parahin at sumakay ka na, kasi hindi mo alam kung babalik pa yun. Siguro nga babalik pa... Eh, paano kung may sakay ng iba?

15. Dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. Kung di mo pagtitiyagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. Sobrang lugi. Kung alam lang yan ng mga kabataan sa pananaw ko ay wala ng gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela

16.Kapag nabasag ang puso… hindi laging malakas gaya ng isang pagsabog. Pwedeng kasing hina ng nalalaglag na dahon… na ang masakit, ikaw lang ang nakakarinig. =EDWARD AQUINO

17.Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao lalo na kung hindi ikaw ang bida sa script na napili niya

18. Pasko na naman at malamig ang simoy ng hangin, masarap sana kung mayroon kang kasintahan na kapiling at yayakapin, sabay kayong kakain sa NOCHE BUENA at MAGBUBUKAS NG MGA REGALO. Pero katulad ng dati, nag-iisa ka pa rin, pero ayos lang yan! Kung nalulungkot ka dahil hindi pa dumarating ang taong nakatadhana sa'yo, wag ...ka masyado malungkot, dahil kahit sya mismo hindi pa ganun kasaya... dahil wala ka pa.-MC DUANE

19.Kahit anong bagal mo, kung hindi ka naman nya gustong habulin, hindi ka rin nya aabutan... kahit mag-stop over ka pa

20. Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon ng kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila. Dahil wala nang mas kawawa pa sa mga taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa

21. Masakit SAKTAN ang MINAMAHAL lalo na kung di mo SINASADYA. Kahit GUSTUHIN mo man na ITUWID ang lahat ng mga PAGKAKAMALI mo eh saka mo pa lang MALALAMAN na HULI na pala... kasi, NAITAMA NA NG IBA.-MC DUANE

22.Nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. Hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures.

23.Ang pag-ibig parang sugal. Minsan panalo... minsan talo. Pero ang pinakamasakit sa lahat... yung makita mong panalo ka sana, pero di ka naman tumaya.

24. Masakit daw umibig palagi ka raw iiyak, palagi ka raw aasa at maghihintay sa wala... sabi ko naman ganun lang yun talaga dahil kung di ka masasaktan.. . di mo malalamang nagmamahal ka na pala. -MC DUANE

25.Ang PAG-IBIG nga naman parang EXAM... pinag-iisipan, pinaghahandaan, di ka EXEMPTED masaktan, kailangan PASADO ka sa kanya... kaya habang maaga pa galingan mo na... kung ayaw mong ma DROP-OUT ka. - FELIPE LAGMAN

26.Bakit pag may gusto tayo kailangan iwanan natin yung iba para lang makuha yun? Pero pag andyan na, saka mo lang malalaman na yung taong iniwan mo ay minsan na ring iniwan ang lahat-lahat sa buhay para lang sayo...

27.Mag-aral maigi; kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka sa pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher

28.Ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko

29.Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo

30.Wag ka masyado mag expect. Wala kayong commitment. Pwede ka magselos, pwede ka magtampo pero hindi ka pwedeng magalit. Pwedeng makipag-date sa iba pero wag na magpapaalam. Pwede mo siyang lambingin, pwedeng yakapin at pag nalaman mong may bf/gf na siya, pwede ka umiyak. Pwede ka masaktan pero hindi mo siya pwedeng sumb...atan. Dahil wala kang karapatan. Dahil ang M.U. ay isang "MAGULONG USAPAN"

31.Maglaro ka ng SNAKE sa cellphone, mapapansin mo, para siyang RELASYON. Sa una, hindi mo iisiping HAHABA ng ganon. Tapos, kapag TUMAGAL na, nagiging EXCITING pero NAKAKATAKOT dahil baka sa ISANG UNTOG lang... MATAPOS ang lahat!!-MC DUANE

32.Ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ka dapat magmahal ng dalawang tao sa parehong panahon ay katulad ng kung bakit hindi ka pwedeng magsuot ng sapatos na hindi magkapares sa parehong oras... posible, pero pangit tingnan.

33.Kapag pinag-aagawan ka malamang maganda o gwapo ka. Sumama ka sa mabuti, hindi sa mabait. Sa marunong, hindi sa matalino. Sa mahal ka, hindi sa gusto ka.

34. Minsan di rin naman talaga ginusto ng mga taong minahal natin ang saktan tayo. Di naman nila sinasadyang iwan tayo para sa bagong dumating. Minsan kailangan natin tanggapin na sa paniniwala nila mas mahal nila yun. Ganun talaga, dun sila kung saan sila masaya. Ganun din naman siguro ang gagawin natin kung tayo ang nasa... sitwasyon na yon diba? Lahat tayo mararanasang AGAWIN, MANG-AGAW at MAAGAWAN Pana-panahon lang yan.

35.Minsan kahit ikaw ang naka-schedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority

36.Sabi nila, sa kahit ano raw problema, isang tao lang ang makakatulong sa'yo – ang sarili mo. Tama sila. Isinuplong ako ng sarili ko. Kaya siguro namigay ng konsensya ang Diyos, alam niyang hindi sa lahat ng oras eh gumagana ang utak ng tao. Ang konsensya ay bahagi ng ating kaisipan na humuhusga kung mabuti o masama ang kilos na iyong gagawin o ginagawa.

37. Hindi naman kailangan ng maraming tao para bumuo ng mundo eh... Minsan isang tao lang ang kasama mo, buo na ang mundong kailangan mo habambuhay

38.Ang isa sa PINAKAMASARAP NA FEELING sa mundo ay yung titingin ka pa lang sa CRUSH mo... PERO SIYA NAKATINGIN NA!!

39.Ang PINAKAMASAKIT NA PAKIRAMDAM sa mundo ay yung nararamdaman mong hindi ka na nya mahal pero hindi nya masabi sa'yo dahil wala ka namang ginagawang masama...

40.Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya

41.ANG TANONG: Gaano ba kaimposibleng mahalin ang taong mahal mo na nagmamahal ng iba?? ANG SAGOT: Para kang nag-aantay ng paparahing Jeep... sa istasyon ng Tren

42.Parang elevator lang yan eh... bakit mo ipagsisiksikan ang sarili mo kung wala nang pwesto para sa'yo. Eh meron namang hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin

43.Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sa'yo, hayaan mo... malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang

44. Alam mo ba ang pinagkaiba ng bulag at ng mga nakakakita? Hindi alam ng mga nakakakita kung kelan sila bulag

45.Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na hindi mo mahal pero mahal ka, Kaya quits lang

46.Ang PAG-IBIG parang IMBURNAL... nakakatakot MAHULOG... at kapag nahulog ka, it's either BY ACCIDENT or talagang TANGA ka.

47.May mga taong minsan lang daraan sa buhay natin, minsan makikilala, makakasama, mamahalin, pahahalagahan at aalagaan, pero kadalasan pala yung minsan na yun... habang-buhay na sa alaala natin.. minsan di sapat na mahal mo ang isang tao, at alam mo na mahalaga ka para sa kanya, kasi bago ang lahat.... dapat alam mo ang pinagkaiba ng MAHAL sa MAHALAGA LANG!

48. Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali? alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig eh hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?

49.Ang tenga kapag pinagdikit korteng puso… Extension ng puso ang tenga, kaya kapag marunong kang makinig, marunong kang magmahal

50.Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon

August 25, 1973

Fort Bonifacio

11:30pm

Mr. Benigno S. Aquino III

P E R S O N A L

My dearest Son:

One of these days , when you have completed your studies I am sure you will have the opportunity to visit many countries. And in your travels you will witness a bullfight.

In Spanish bullfighting as you know, a man – the matador – is pitted against an angry bull.

The man goads the bull to extreme anger and madness. Then a moment comes when the bull, maddened, bleeding and covered with darts, feeling his last moment has come, stops rushing about and grimly turns his face on the man with the scarlet “muleta” and sword. The Spaniards call this “the moment of truth.” This is the climax of the bullfight.

This afternoon, I have arrived at my own moment of truth. After a lengthy conference with my lawyers, Senators Jovito R. Salonga and Lorenzo M. Tanada I made a very crucial and vital decision that will surely affect all our lives: mommie’s, your sisters’, yours and all our loved ones as well as mine.

I have decided not to participate in the proceedings of the Military Commission assigned to try the charges filed against me by the army prosecution staff. As you know, I’ve been charged with illegal possession of firearms, violation of RA 1700 otherwise known as the “Anti-Subversion Act” and murder.

You are still too young to grasp the full impact of my decision. Briefly: by not participating in the proceedings, I will not be represented by counsel, the prosecution will present its witnesses without any cross examinations, I will not put up any defense, I will remain passive and quiet through the entire trial and I will merely await the verdict. Inasmuch as it will be a completely one-sided affair, I suppose it is reasonable to expect the maximum penalty will be given to me. I expect to be sentenced to imprisonment the rest of my natural life, or possibly be sent to stand before a firing squad. By adopting the course of action I decided upon this afternoon, I have literally decided to walk into the very jaws of death.

You may ask: why did you do it?

Son, my decision is an act of conscience. It is an act of protest against the structures of injustice that have been imposed upon our hapless countrymen. Futile and puny, as it will surely appear to many, it is my last act of defiance against tyranny and dictatorship.

You are my only son. You carry my name and the name of my father. I have no material wealth to leave you. I never had time to make money while I was in the hire of our people.

For this I am very sorry. I had hopes of building a little nest egg for you. I bought a ranch in Masbate in the hope that after ten or fifteen years, the coconut trees I planted there would be yielding enough to assure you a modest but comfortable existence.

Unfortunately, I had to sell all our properties as I fought battle after political battle as a beleaguered member of the opposition. And after the last battle, I had more obligations than assets.

The only valuable asset I can bequeath to you now is the name you carry. I have tried my best during my years of public service to keep that name untarnished and respected, unmarked by sorry compromises for expediency. I now pass it on to you, as good, I pray, as when my father, your grandfather passed it on to me.

I prepared a statement which I intend to read before the military commission on Monday at the opening of my trial. I hope the commission members will be understanding and kind enough to allow me to read my statement into the record. This may well be my first and only participation in the entire proceedings.

In this statement, I said: Some people suggested that I beg for mercy from the present powers that be. Son, this I cannot do in conscience. I would rather die on my feet with honor, than live on bended knees in shame.

Your great grandfather, Gen. Servilliano Aquino was twice condemned to death by both the Spaniards and the American colonizers. Fortunately, he survived both by a twist of fate.

Your grandfather, my father was also imprisoned by the Americans because he loved his people more than the Americans who colonized us. He was finally vindicated. Our ancestors have shared the pains, the sorrows and the anguish of Mother Filipinas when she was in bondage.

It is a rare privilege for me to join the Motherland in the dark dungeon where she was led back by one of her own sons whom she lavished with love and glory.

I ended my statement thus: I have chosen to follow my conscience and accept the tyrant’s revenge.

It takes little effort to stop a tyrant. I have no doubt in the ultimate victory of right over wrong, of evil over good, in the awakening of the Filipino.

Forgive me for passing unto your young shoulders the great responsibility for our family. I trust you will love your mother and your sisters and lavish them with the care and protection I would have given them.

I was barely fifteen years old when my father died. His death was my most traumatic experience. I loved and hero-worshipped him so much, I wanted to join him in his grave when he passed away. But as in all sorrows, eventually they are washed away by the rains of time.

In the coming years, I hope you will study very hard so that you will have a solid foundation on which to build your future. I may no longer be around to give you my fatherly advice. I have asked many of your uncles to help you along should the need arise and I pray you will have the humility to drink from their fountain of experiences.

Look after your two younger sisters with understanding and affection. Viel and Krissy will need your umbrella of protection for a long time. Krissy is still very young and fate has been most unkind to both of us. Our parting came too soon. Please make up for me. Take care of her as I would have taken care of her with patience and warm affection.

Finally, stand by your mother as she stood beside me through the buffeting winds of crisis and uncertainties firm and resolute and uncowed. I pray to God, you inherit her indomitable spirit and her rare brand of silent courage.

I had hopes of introducing you to my friends, showing you the world and guide you through the maze of survival. I am afraid, you will now have to go it alone without your guide.

The only advice I can give you: Live with honor and follow your conscience.

There is no greater nation on earth than our Motherland. No greater people than our own. Serve them with all your heart, with all your might and with all your strength.

Son, the ball is now in your hands.

Lovingly,

Dad

1. aspect - pantusok ng yelo
2. backlog - bacon saka egg
3. beehive - magpakatino ka
4. cdrom - tingnan mo ang kwarto
5. city - bago mag-utso
6. cattle - doon nakatila ang hali at leyna
7. debug - ang ipis
8. dedicated - pinatay ang pusa
9. deduct - ang pato
10. defeat - ang paa (ng pato?)
11. defense - ang bakod
12. defer - ang balahibo
13. deflate - ang plato
14. defrag - ang palaka
15. delusion - e di maluwag
16. depends - (see defense)
17. deposit - ang gripo
18. depress - nagkasal sa persuading(see persuading)
19. detail - ang buntot (ng pato?)
20. detest - ang eksamin
21. devalue - 'yon ang susunod saletrang 'V'
22. devastation - 'dun sasakay ng bus
23. devote - ang boto
24. dilemma - brownout, a!
25. effort - 'dun nagla-land ang efflane
26. forums - apat na kwarto
27. it depends - kainin mo ang bakod
28. july - nagsinungaling ka ba?
29. statue - ikaw ba 'yan?
30. protestant - tindahan ng prutas.
31. predicate - pakawalan mo ang pusa
32. profit - patunayan mo
33. persuading - unang kasal
34. tenacious - sinusuot sa paa (pag nagtetennis)
35. thesis - ito ay...
36. torpedo - takot manligaw
37. zoology - ang sayans ng pagtatahi
38. Balance Sheet - what comes out after a balanced diet

Throughout the years, I have collected love letters from novels, tv, movies, and even from real life, and I've decided to post my favorites here.

This first one is one of my faves because it was so full of emotions that I can feel the love just by reading it. What's more is that it was actually written by an actual person to well, another actual person.

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Heartbreaking.  Move over, Nicholas Sparks. Noli Eala in da haus 'yo!

The following letter was given by Noli to Irene the day she is to wed another man.

 

My everdearest Irene,

By the time you open this, you'll be moments away from walking down the aisle. I will say a prayer for you that you may find meaning in what you're about to do.

Sometimes I wonder why we ever met. Is it only for me to find fleeting happiness but experience eternal pain? Is it only for us to find a true love but then lose it again? Or is it because there's a bigger plan for the two of us?

I hope that you have experienced true happiness with me. I have done everything humanly possible to love you. And today, as you make your vows . . . I make my own vow to YOU!

I will love you for the rest of my life. I loved you from the first time I laid eyes on you, to the time we spent together, up to the final moments of your single life. But more importantly, I will love you until the life in me is gone and until we are together again.

Do not worry about me! I will be happy for you. I have enough memories of us to last me a lifetime. Always remember though that in my heart, in my mind and in my soul, YOU WILL ALWAYS

. . . AND THE WONDERFUL THINGS YOU DO!

BE MINE . . . . AND MINE ALONE, and I WILL ALWAYS BE YOURS AND YOURS ALONE!

I LOVE YOU FOREVER, I LOVE YOU FOR ALWAYS. AS LONG AS I'M LIVING MY TWEETIE YOU'LL BE!"

Eternally yours,
NOLI
 

Had I been the recepient of this, I wouldn't even think of walking that aisle with another man. It's heartbreaking, especially since this letter -- and his love for Irene -- cost him his license to practice law.

Read the full SC decision here :  

Ayoko na. Di ko alam na ganito pala kasakit. -- Chinno, One More Chance

Di naman ako nakipag-break, pero parang ganun na din. Twas a slap in the face ang drama. Kung delete-an pala ang tema, idelete ko kaya siya sa Facebook at Messenger? Ayokong makarinig ng anumang updates sa kanya. Ayokong mabasa ang mga status niya. I dun wanna have anything to do with him anymore! (pasigaw ang deliberi ko ng linyang yan).

Kaso hindi ako ganun. Bawal maglabas ng weakness. Smile though your heart is aching. Smile, an everlasting smile. Kunwari hindi ako apektado. Kunwari wala lang siya. Kase, doon naman nagsimula ang lahat -- sa kunwari.

Nasabi ko na noon na ayoko na. Pero, to paraphrase Basha, alam ko naman nang wala na talaga e. Pero ngayon lang naging totoo. Masakit pala. Ouch. Masakit sa puso, masakit sa ego. Shet na malagket. Spare my battered heart from unneccessary pain.

Totoo na to. Final na. Hiramin ko muna yung linya ni Rihanna - it's the last time I'll ever gonna cry these tears... Tama na ang pagiging masokista. Hindi na uso. Lipas na. Parang tayo sa isa't isa.

The man of my dreams has almost faded now. The one I have created in my mind. The sort of man each woman dreams of, in the deepest and most secret reaches of her heart. I can almost see him now before me. What would I say to him if he were really here? "Forgive me. I have never known this feeling. I have lived without it all my life. Is it any wonder, then, I failed to recognize you? You, who brought it to me for the first time. Is there any way I can tell you how my life have changed? Any way at all to let you know what sweetness you have given me? There is so much to say... I cannot find the words. Except for these: I love you."

Headache -- yes, that's what I get for thinking so much about this current state of affairs I am in now. Too much alone time makes me delve too much on what could have been and what should be. I would have preferred to go out and drown the depression away with songs and beer, but the heart is a strong commander of my mind (and all the muscles of my body). The spirit is very much willing, but the flesh is weak. Just thinking about dressing up and going out tires me out, that I end up not going out at all. Now, all I prefer to do is abuse my laptop, and scour the internet of possible sources of entertainment. Wrong move, since being connected to the internet is a catalyst to my depression. Still, I couldn't break the habit. It's like addiction. I need to be online or I'll go berserk. I'd rather be hurt knowing, than be hurt not knowing.

And so the saga continues. It has long been drawn out, IMO. If this were a soap opera, it is way past its climax (and its heyday). The producers should have axed the show a long time ago, but no. The producers seem to secretly hate the characters and so want them to suffer indefinitely. We know how this would end though. Too much suffering  in this lifetime pushes the lead stars to drink that poison instead. And then the fans would go berserk. So who's happy now?

Oh, and a soap opera needs a song, the one to play recurringly during confrontation scenes, crying scenes and "i hate the world" scenes. I just found the perfect song to go with this drawn-out telenovela.

Migraine

Moonstar88

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo 
Hanggang dito lang ako, nangangarap na mapa-sayo 
Hindi sinasadya 
Na hanapin pa ang lugar ko 
Asan nga ba ako? Andiyan pa ba sa iyo? 

Nahihilo, nalilito 
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo? 

Nasusuka ako, kinakain na ang loob 
Masakit na mga tuhod, kailangan bang lumuhod? 
Gusto ko lang naman, yung totoo 
Yung tipong ang sagot, ay di rin isang tanong 

Nahihilo, nalilito 
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo? 
Nahihilo, nalilito 
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo? 

Dahil, di na makatulog (makatulog) 
Dahil di na makakain (makakain) 
Dahil di na makatawa (makatawa) 
Dahil, di na 

Oo nga pala, hindi nga pala tayo 
Hanggang dito na lang ako 

Nahihilo, nalilito 
Asan ba ko sayo? Asan ba ko sayo? 
Nahihilo, nalilito 
Asan ba ko sayo? Aasa ba ko sayo? 
Nahihilo... Nahihilo... 
Nalilito...